As I was riding in on the train to work on Friday I thought about how little I've been thanking and intimately talking to God lately. I prayed, visualizing the Presence of God, and realized my ingratitude and negligence. I made the trek over to St. Peter's in the Loop (a.k.a. Chicago's downtown) for Confession and Mass. St. Peter's has two Confessionals staffed most of the time. I picked the one staffed by a Franciscan with an Italian last name. I don't know why, I just did.
While I was waiting, the door shut on my side, I prayed for the priest, that he would truly be in persona Christi, "in the person of Christ" and that he would truly speak the words Christ, through the Holy Spirit, would give him for me.
How wonderful the Sacrament of Confession is. Here we are receiving an individual audience with our Savior to receive His Forgiveness, to receive the healing and teaching from the Holy Spirit audible to our ears, as some of us, including me, lack the gift of hearing God speak audibly.
This isn't the first time I wrote the advice I heard in a confessional in a blog post, but when you are touched by love, healing, and light that helps with re-establishing an intimate relationship with our Lord and God, who is the great lover of our souls, it seems that advice should be shared.
"Spend some time dwelling on God's presence. Think about the fact that any goodness or holiness in you comes from God's presence. Any goodness, or holiness that you sense in others comes from God's presence."
Earlier on the train ride in I had read, "Since our Lord dwells in our soul, His prayer is ours." by St. Teresa Benedicta of the Cross (Edith Stein)
John--chapter 8, have you read that recently? Several verses have been coming up for me lately, usually from KLOVE's Encouraging Word email that I receive everyday. As I peacefully alternated between reading John chapter 8 and napping at the pool yesterday (yes a lovely way to spend the 4th, and the first summer in many years that I could do this, as even the youngest child is a good swimmer now) these verses stood out.
"I am the light of the world; he who follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." (John 8:12)
"I have told you that you would die in your sins, for you will die in your sins unless you believe that I am he (the Son of God)." (John 8:24)
"If you continue in my word, you are truly my disciples, and you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free." (John 8:31b-32)
"Jesus answered them, 'Truly, truly, I say to you, every one who commits sin is a slave to sin. The slave does not continue in the house for ever; the son continues for ever. So if the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed.'" (John 8:34-36)
"Why do you not understand what I say? It is because you cannot bear to hear my word. You are of your father the devil, and your will is to do your father's desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, and has nothing to do with the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks according to his own nature, for he is a liar and father of lies." (John 8:44)
That last one seemed to help me make sense of the incredible, orchestrated deceptions of those who did not view the Hobby Lobby decision as a victory for religious freedom . . . and defeating the rising tyranny of a government imposing its beliefs on others. If someone in good conscience believes that destroying a fertilized egg before or after implantation in the womb is immoral, they should not be forced to contribute to it. Those vociferous and deceitful talking heads claiming otherwise are really angry that they have been given a hurdle to imposing their views. Ironically this is their main argument . . . that Hobby Lobby and other corporations can now impose their views on their workers.
Their second argument is that the "Science" as confirmed by the FDA says these are not abortion causing drugs. They up the anecdotal claim that fertilized eggs fall through without implanting not 60%, not 75% but 80% of the time. That is really hard to believe without a cross-reference to a medical study (and I have looked for them), but they keep increasing it so anyone that disagrees is cast as an uneducated, uninformed, religious bigot. It's also hard to believe from my own experience. Armed with the science behind Natural Family Planning's sympto-thermal method, my husband and I were pregnant with our first the second month of trying, and I had one period between my 1st and 2nd pregnancy, and no period between my 2nd and 3rd pregnancy. My sincere apologies to those who suffer from infertility and do not know this ease of conception.
Their third argument is the classic, if you don't believe in an abortion causing drug, don't take one. In similar reasoning, in WWII Germany the SS commanders of the concentration camps and even Hitler himself had no responsibility for the millions that were gased, because only those that turned the knobs or the switch (whatever the mechanism) were the ones that were guilty of those terminated by the toxic gas. What a feeble argument. Our country permitted slavery, legalizing all of African origin as less than a human being. All that approved of that line in the constitution and fought on the side to maintain that practice have some moral responsibility for the injustice done to those who were enslaved.
If you read the book of Jeremiah, you find that God didn't just punish the parents that sacrificed their children to Moloch, the entire nation was punished by famine, disease, sword, and exile.
Further, If we don't stand up against injustice and evil we do bear some responsibility when it is perpetrated.
"Every one to whom much is given, of him will much be required; and of him to whom men commit much they will demand the more." Luke 12:48b
If we have the gift of faith, and conscience we are required to speak and stand against the lies and murder that comes from the devil, "a murderer from the beginning, and has nothing to do with the truth, because there is no truth in him." (John 8:44)
"He who is of God hears the words of God; the reason why you do not hear them is that you are not of God." (John 8:47)
Therefore we should not be surprised when we hear lies, and we have an explanation for how some are able to justify killing of infants within the womb, and declare those opposed to this as "religious bigots who love the 'non-sentient' fetus more than the mother." That too is a lie. Those of us that do go out to the clinics are not just there because we grieve the killing of the babies, but because we are viscerally aware of the long-lasting heartbreak, guilt, and regret that follow the woman as she exits the facility. We also know that 75% - maybe 80%, who knows really (similar to the claims of fertilized eggs falling through without implantation) are coerced or otherwise arrive at the facility thinking that it is the only option for them. The prayer and presence of the prolife people outside of the clinics is that the woman would talk to them and learn there are other options, not only to save the life of the unborn child, but to spare the woman of the deep and lasting pain that is germinated from the termination.
"Jesus said to them, 'Truly, truly, I say to you, before Abraham was, I AM." (John 8:58)
Finally these words of Fr. John Bartunek from The Better Part on John 8:12-20:
Jesus himself, his person and his teachings, is the pillar of saving fire that shines throughout the entire world, leading whoever believes in him to the fullness of life itself. . . . Thoreau (wrote) . . . most men lead lives of quiet desperation, knowing that there is more to life, but unable to find it. We walk in darkness, groping tentatively and anxiously - unless we have Jesus. His example, his teaching, and his presence are a "lamp to our feet and a light to our path" (Psalm 119:105). With Jesus, we know where we are going and how to get there. Who are the people in history who have lived the most fulfilling, fulfilled, and fruitful lives if not the saints . . . ? Only the saints (by walking the path of Christ's light) learn the secret of rejoicing in the midst of suffering; only they conquer the conundrum of how to be happy in a fallen world.I am reading The Quiet Light, a novel about St. Thomas Aquinas. I would like to add what St. Thomas wrote about that last highlighted part--the conundrum of how to be happy, believe and love God, seeking after him, in a fallen world, but this post is already longer than planned and longer than any but 1 or 2 will read!